Running into

Running - within myself I see beauty and ugliness. battling each other constantly for control. what they should be doing is becoming one unique combination. without this inner struggling I wouldn't be who I am today. my thought process would be monotone. my conclusion would have one solution. all my issues would have one outcome. I could get over it that much faster. I'd be boring. but nothing about me is boring. I amuse even myself at times. laugh at my own jokes. find humor all day long when others can't even understand me. I see myself in a corner, in time out, nose in the corner touching the wall, smiling, waiting for another chance to cause mischief. wanting to be ugly on the outside. But then beauty is in that same corner fighting to stand up, trying to remain calm but can't. attempting to be calm, assuring the ugly it's better to be nice, life can be so much fun without the ugliness. beauty is trying to teach ugly how to transform from a caterpillar to a butterfly. letting him know there's a lot more to life than being grounded. telling him it's a whole other world out there when you can soar. float on the wind and enjoy life. go just about anywhere and be accepted everywhere. but ugly wants to be accepted as ugly and no matter how much beauty wants to be beautiful it wouldn't need to be both. this, I don't need to be like you is a misconception. because I am you. it took being looked down on for many years by everyone around me ( cocoon ) to be transformed and renewed ( butterfly ) by living with values I found by letting God work in my life. I have become unique to his design and his making. it's my turn to thank him with my actions.