Sad Mad

You know people can bring out a different kind of mad in you, you wanna know the kind you brought out in me? The sad mad, the I loved you when nobody else did and you act like its nothing sad mad, i put my all into you and you could barely put a piece in me sad mad, I lived for you before I lived for myself and now I feel like I cant live with out you Sad mad, The I see more in you than you see yourself and you still dont understand how much I love you sad mad. Like how could you not see what’s in front of you? How can you just not see the pain I’m going through? I gotta fucking watch you live your life and love somebody else? While I felt like loving you was the turning point in the wellness of my health? I keep telling myself not to question who I am and how I feel but I cant help it, man sometimes I feel like saying fuck you and being selfish. You ever felt a hurt so bad it feel like being shot in your pelvis? You ever felt a pain so bad like knowing you innocent but still being arrested? You ever fell in love with a liar because of the dreams they suggested? You ever felt your heart bleed and still have to act like you dont feel? You ever sat up all night tryna separate what’s fake and what’s real? But enough of the questions because they still not answered and that’s bad, because that’s the only way to make me be understanding and not sad mad