Emotional Rant
I was screaming, but words weren't coming out. I punched myself in the leg to distract myself from the overwhelming anger and sadness that was radiating out from me. The worst part was not even knowing why I was feeling this way.
Physical pain is terrible. It can leaving damage and worse for years. It can cause major issues and cause even worse suffering. However, it comes with an ending. It comes with a definition. You can see a effects of a heartattack. You can perform CPR on someone.
Emotional pain is worse because alot of the time the only cure is time. There is no way of knowing what someone is really going through because in many cases there are no physical signs of it. If someone is upset, they might cry but not know why or be able to explain themselves. There are no concrete diagnostics for emotional pain. You can't put a bandaid on it and let it heal up. There are no bloodtests for heartache. There is only pain and time. Hopefully support and healing will come.
Then comes another element of Emotional pain. There are people out there that proudly show off scars like some sort of war- wound. That is not the case with emotional scars. People don't usually proudly say they are alcoholics or are dealing with losing someone. There is a setiment out there that the shame of going to therapy is one of the greatest threats to people's health. People do not seek out therapy because of a fear of what people will say or if it will negatively affect their lives.
People are ashamed to be broken and that is not ok.
Physical scars heal. Emotional demons are forever.