too many sparks

dad is angry again & i don't understand

hollow feeling in my chest

wasn't i fine just now

why does every meal and conversation

leave us frustrated, alone, depressed

i love my family but i hate them too

what can i do to fix it

they're always so angry now,

snapping at the slightest thing

and i tiptoe, hoping

but it never works

and only time turns the fire down to embers

until another spark comes and lights it up again

the sparks come all too often