I don’t have a title for how I feel

I’ll admit that I ain’t perfect

I been insecure for years

It’s a very low feeling

To think that you are worthless

Groomed to think this way since age 3

Looking in the mirror never really liking

What I see

Wondering if God made a mistake on me

Giving birth to a beautiful blessing

And his father can’t even see the worth in me

Giving every person my all

Still they walk away from me

Or do I push them out

The picture is never clear to me

Pinned up resentment turns into

Built up anger

Which turns into mental danger

Danger for anyone who deals with me

Loves on me

Always looking for my exit out

Before someone else abandons me

Fighting when I know there can never be a victory

Cus the battle isn’t with you

It’s inside of me

It haunts me

Taunts me

Look at your self

Pretty perfect picture

But how can someone love you

When you have no inner wealth

Everyday losing grip on your mental health

Wonder if I told anyone how I really felt

Would it really help

So I just keep it to myself

Until every once in a while

I gotta let my demons out

Now I’m looking crazy

My decision making gets a little hazey

Feeling like if I was someone else

I probably wouldn’t even date me

I don’t know man this just how I been feeling lately

Or should I say

This just how I been feeling daily.