The Meaning

I don’t know when I started hoping

I don’t know when my heart open

Wonder why I didn’t close it

I couldn’t handle those emotions

But you was there to hold me

And I know I acted distant, in my head I held you closely

Yet I really want to forget it, and one day I will hopefully

I was really playing games, so I should’ve never hugged you

I wouldn’t be feeling all this pain girl, if I ain’t ever loved you

But I did it all for you

Sorry that we’re through

We bit more than we can chew

Sorry for acting like a fool

Sorry but it’s just the truth

You really was life changing

Sorry I was the one cave in

I’m real sorry that I gave in

We both hoped we could make it

But the pressure, I couldn’t take it

And I know none of it was fake shit

So I never lied, wanted to live true

Where we stand now, I can never forgive you

That don’t mean I don’t love you

It’s just really I can’t trust you

I don’t even want to touch you

That’s how I see it in my thoughts

I know we really both at fault

Between my heart and mind, division

I can’t make a clear decision

I’m torn between my past, I’m torn facing my future

I don’t want you around, but I’m scared to lose ya

Thought good guys win, but I’m the biggest loser

If that’s not the case, how I feel so much but couldn’t prove it

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