I want to see him hurt

The kind of hurt that takes a lifetime to heal.

I want to watch him choke from coughing and trying to breath and crying all at the same time.

I want him to know what it feels like to think that your only option is crisply slice deep...

...to the point your arms feel numb and you just pass out blood dripping down your shirt.

Or to think about running away just to end it all.

The shortness of breathe

Waking up at night to tears and sweat.

Seeing someone else flaunt him when he was mine.

Or suppose to be I want him to feel that.

Like someone is taking a hammer and drilling it right through your chest. Deep.

Then I want him to be to feel the love return.

Unconditionally

Irrevocably

Intensely

Dive head first in love

To feel like the one that hurt him, heals him.

Holds him

Keeps him

Fix him.

Then to have that smashed down in a matter of a week. Ripped straight away from him

Make him feel the pain.

But then again. I want him to find love, love so true that he wouldn't want to hurt anyone the way he did me. I want his happiness.

....for him to wake up everyday and not want any other life expect his own.

My revenge is for him to know he gave up on someone that cared.

I want him to feel my forgiveness

Watch as I genuinely respect and care.

To realize what he lost and for him to just know

The hurt that I feel. Made me a better person.