My mind has been clouded with thoughts of you...

My mind has been clouded with thoughts of you

Books, grades, disappointment

Anxiety, sleep, doubt

My first.

Another test, a trial

Will I pass?

Lost something I thought would last

Then you came along

I couldn't be with you

We're the same, but different

Different ways, different beliefs of what's above

Staring at the screen

Not being able to hear your voice

Not actually having you beside me

Yet you still make me smile

Cheered me up from the sadness that loss has brought

And made me forget

Minutes to hours

Then eventually to "goodnights"

Every. Single. Day.

The clouds wouldn't leave me alone

The constant, forbidden desire of comfort

Touch.

A somewhat dangerous friendship

But I didn't want it to end.

I'm sorry.