How dangerous it is to "feel" for another
One I wasted a year of my youth chasing
One never cared
One faded away
One played with hearts and mine
And now,
One who did everything to make me feel okay and safe
Who helped me found myself when I was lost
Who was someone I can talk about anything
Who somehow knew the right time when I needed him the most without a word
Who helped me laugh with his humour
Who helped me smile
Who shared the love of music and books
And most importantly,
Who was my best friend
Even through a distance
But,
of course.
Like the rest,
You were never the one for me
How stupid.
I knew you would never feel the same anyway
But
Our friendship is what matters the most
Your presence in my life matters the most
I will never ask for more
Now, you became the one who found someone else
I shall once again take a step back
And leave it all behind.
Yes, I'm hurting.
It's not your fault,
It's mine.
Strange
How strange it feels that things in life don't last forever
How things come and you'd think that they'll be around for a long time
Then you realise they're gone.
How strange it is to feel
Your heart bursting with butterflies, happiness and affection
Then that turns to agony, hate, despair
How strange it is to think that he or she is the one
Then you think to yourself, "what a waste of time"
How strange it is to have the best time of your life with the people you care about
Then the next thing you know, you're miles away from them
How strange it is to think that your family will forever be intact
Then your parents decided that their love for each other is lost
Strange as it seems, they come and go for a reason
They do it to help you learn, grow
But the strangeness and the emptiness you feel inside doesn't seem to make any sense
But I know deep inside, this world is temporary
Just keep going, let them pass, let them go.
She lies awake at night
Staring at the screen
Refreshing. Refreshing.
Wondering if the boy she once knew
Would ever come back to her
She waited all day for him
In fact, maybe days
She longs for a “goodnight”
“I love you”
or a “thought about you today, hope you’re well”
But no.
Nothing.
Her heart feels heavy
Tight...
Her thoughts and pain weighing her down
Because she was willing to hold on
As days passed, the weight seems to slowly kill her
She couldn’t take it anymore
“I want to let you go,
so please let me go too.”
It’s over.
Yes, it was painful to let go
But to her,
It was more painful that hanging onto something that’s slowly fading
It was more painful trying to reach out to someone who keeps pushing her away
It was more painful knowing that he doesn’t show that he loves her every day
After letting go,
Her heart feels a little lighter
The pain and misery started to drift away
Yet some of the weight still remains
With memories and the love she once had
But soon enough
Slowly and surely,
Her heart will be free.
My dear,
The world had seemed to bring you darkness
Despair and pain
The world had seemed to pull you
Further and further from me
I’ve been staring far into the distance
Hoping for you to come back
I tried to run
In hopes of being able to find you and pull you out of the darkness
But you’re nowhere to be found
I’ve been sitting here
Determined to wait for you to come back on your own
As the days passed, my heart became heavier and heavier
Tighter and tighter
It hurts so much
Numbing my mind as I slowly fall asleep
I woke up,
With my heart feeling as cold as stone
I realised that waiting for you every day
Every second
Has been poisoning me
Where’s the point in hanging on?
If we both know we may never last
Let’s stop now.
I mean it.
I should have ended this a long time ago.
I’m going to stand up and walk away...
If you decide to come back just as you did before
There is no turning back for me this time.
“You were good to me”
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sHiC_26vBP4
Please.
Help me understand...
How can one fall in love with someone who they can't imagine themselves spending the rest of their life with
Please.
Tell me.
Who am I to you?
Am I someone who crosses your mind daily?
Am I someone who fills that empty space inside?
Please.
Tell me.
Is this friendship? Or is it something more?
Because
You wouldn't leave my mind alone
I crave for your touch
Your comfort
I want to be able to lay my head down on your shoulder
And being able to say "I love you, I really do."
But I couldn't.
I shouldn't.
I know I turned you down at the beginning
And as time has passed I feel like our connection has grown stronger than ever before
Yet deep down, I hear a little voice:
"One day, you will have to leave him. For the sake of your soul"
"One day, you will find someone else. The person you always dreamed of.
And he's not."
...
"Let's not fall in love."
"I'm trying", I whispered.
My Father’s Tired Eyes
My father’s tired eyes
Stared into space
Through them, I could see
Sorrow, pain.
His hair, nearly silver
The skin on his neck sags
He walks with difficulty
As he drags his right foot
Pressing his weight towards a cane in his hand
He used to be full of energy
He used to play basketball,
Used to take me to golf,
Used to race to the front door with my little brother
As time passes,
His body crumbled
As he struggles to carry the weight of his responsibilities
The weight of hatred given by his other children
Despite many burdens,
He still continues to work
To remain on the path full of storms and dangers
For the sake of me
For the sake of us
As I approach the oblivious stage of adulthood
I can’t help but feel so sorry
For growing up too fast
For being too happy
For wanting to be free.
My mind has been clouded with thoughts of you...
My mind has been clouded with thoughts of you
Books, grades, disappointment
Anxiety, sleep, doubt
My first.
Another test, a trial
Will I pass?
Lost something I thought would last
Then you came along
I couldn't be with you
We're the same, but different
Different ways, different beliefs of what's above
Staring at the screen
Not being able to hear your voice
Not actually having you beside me
Yet you still make me smile
Cheered me up from the sadness that loss has brought
And made me forget
Minutes to hours
Then eventually to "goodnights"
Every. Single. Day.
The clouds wouldn't leave me alone
The constant, forbidden desire of comfort
Touch.
A somewhat dangerous friendship
But I didn't want it to end.
I'm sorry.