You want fucked up?

I'll give you a peak inside my head.

I'll lay down soflty in my bed.

I'll close my eyes,

and let you look inside,

because it's too painful for me to show you myself.

Skin tingling..

Excitement takes over.

They dance and dance

to their favourite song.

Words exchanged

and nothings wrong.

That's when it starts

that night of hell,

tears ebb and flow and start to swell.

He kicks and screams,

until he can't anymore.

Eyes darting, jaws locked.

He's lying there upon the floor.

They come and they try to help,

hands thrust on hearts,

trying to save the day,

but there is just no way,

to bring him back from the brink.

He's gone, I hear them say,

and my heart, it just sinks.

He's dead and he's lifeless and

you won't understand until youre there.

My brothers arms,

wrapped around me in despair.

what do you do, when love just slips away?

You cry and you cry,

all night and day.

Fish eyes peak out from beneath his lids,

snaggle tooth pops out from his lips.

He'd hate this, you think,

and they struggle down the stairs.

His hardened and heavy body,

dragged like nobody cares.

Endless grief takes me over,

I'm a shell of a person

reliving that night over and over.

I'm diffferent now.

I'm not the same.

Death of a loved one changes you,

again and again.