Hey Alibear,

Keep your head up. 

Life will tear you down early

...too early.

You will have scars.

Mean, nasty, ugly, and shameful scars.

Both physical

and emotional.

You will grow cold.

Your heart will ice over.

Those things you once loved...

they won't be there anymore.

Those people that said they loved you,

they will tear you to pieces.

They will destroy your spirit.

Those people that you trusted,

they will chew you up and spit you out.

Those who were never supposed to hurt you,

they will destroy you.

There will be times,

that an end seems only just.

There will be times,

when the fear of just breathing will destroy an entire day,

and then some.

There will be times,

that you don't leave your bed,

or your bathtub,

or you head.

There will be times,

that the monsters you keep at bay

will break through and wreak havoc.

But have faith.

Not in some deity,

but in yourself.

Days will come that you are alone,

scared,

nervous,

devastated,

pissed,

exhausted,

and that will just be when you wake up.

There will come a year,

when darkness seems to prevail.

And those that love you,

have abandoned you,

or are the source of the darkness.

Just hold on and don't lose yourself.

Because at the end of that year,

things get better.

There will be one that loves everything about

YOU.

There will be one that shows you

you are worth loving.

Trust me,

this is the most important thing to ever happen in your life.

The monsters don't go away,

but now,

you have somebody by your side to keep them at bay.

So just keep holding on. 

Don't change a thing.

Everything you are going through will help you.

I promise.

Don't give up just yet. 

Count to ten.

And then count to ten again.

And keep counting to ten until that person comes.

You'll know when they come around.

Just take a look in the mirror

right when things are at its worst

and you seem to no longer exist.

Look in the mirror.

There is your person. 

Behind the glazed look.

Look deep.

You'll see her trying to get out.

Let her.

The light will come back.

I promise.

-A teeny bit older Alibear