her

heartbreak

have you ever held someone so close to you in your heart that even when they leave, you’re still attached to them. the strings they held around your heart just cut into you, scar you

i loved her so much, and in an instant, she was gone and loved someone else

she was perfect, helped me out of a bad breakup, she even said that i helped her

one day though, she was different

breaking down at her locker saying “i love someone else” as i comforted her and said it was okay

it wasn’t until i was walking home from my bus that relisation hit me

she doesn’t love me

her heart is with someone else...and it’s not me

i even gave her a rose quartz necklace that i made for christmas, a symbol of love

in a matter of days, she was with the person that had her heart, and mine was left to crumble

i cannot count how many nights i had to cry myself to sleep because my heart ached so much.

then my heart actually started to hurt on the outside

listening to the song she had sung for me at our school talent shows, my chest got tight

the left side of my chest hurt so bad that i didn’t listen to spotify for months, in fear it would come back into my shuffled playlist

i realized, looking back at what had happened, that there was still so much i didn’t know about her

but the girl that had her heart did.

to my ex, the girl that broke my heart, the girl that left me because i was too dumb and heartbroken to say anything after saying that you loved another....

i hope you’re doing well

i hope that your new partner gives you everything that i couldn’t

i don’t wish that you would come back, though i did for a while

it still hurts every now and then, but i just want you to have someone that can love you more than i ever did