BranBran,

What kind of nickname is that anyway? I know you can't answer me, in fact you may be too young to retain or understand all of this, but you'll figure it out one day. You'll impress and piss-off your parents for years to come. You'll also disappoint them, and shame them. You'll fight with yourself more than anyone, and you'll be afraid of the things you'll find yourself thinking about-- afraid of what it means about you, but you're more than your thoughts. You'll learn the hard way, how easy it is to be wickedly loved and vehemently hated.

You'll also learn the hard way, no one can hate you more than you'll hate on yourself. It's okay though, you'll get through it, even when you don't want to. There will be something inside you that will push you onward and you wont understand why or what it is until you're almost thirty.

You'll struggle the most with love and compassion, even though you'll tell yourself the fight is with your anger and rage. You'll know, even if you don't know how to say it, that you're only so angry because you have more compassion than you know what to do with. The emotional pain will feel like it'll crush you-- but it wont. It can't.

You'll know soon enough, that you're of above average intelligence, and incredibly strong willed-- which will also frighten you. This fear will stall you, make you second guess yourself, your reason for living and your reasons to try. You'll worry about it, want to kill yourself over it, but you'll survive all that too. More importantly, you'll learn from all of it, all the things you experienced that made you hate the world, and hate yourself for living in it.

You'll suffer, adapt, evolve and move forward.

That will be your pattern long before you realize you have control over the length of each stage... but you will figure it out, that and more than I'm willing to write about.

Experience life, then reflect on what it's taught you.

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