God Damn

I should have known better than to sit down at your lunch table. I should have known better because I always know better. I always know better but not this time. So that fucking sucks.

But, I had a chance to save myself when you asked me and her to hang out with you at the park after school. I should have known better than to say yes. I should have known better than to go even when she said she couldn't make it. I always know better than to do shit like that. But not this time. So that's a fucking bummer.

I should have known better than to skip biology with you. I should have known that it was a gateway to falling in love with you. I should have known better than to forgo the promise I made to myself as a freshman - I would never skip class, it would stress me out way too much - to spend a moment leaning against your shoulder and passing a dab pen back and forth. I should have known better, I thought I knew better - but I guess I don't. That fucking blows.

I should have known better than to kiss you in the backstairs during lunch that day. I knew that that was all it would take to get me hooked on you but I did it anyway. I thought I was stronger than the feelings I had for you I should have known that I wasn't. But I didn't. So that was a bitch to deal with.

Now I know better but it's entirely too late. Not I know better than to sit with you, to be at the park with you, to skip bio with you, and to kiss you. Now, but not then.