Settle

I’m still waiting for all of it to settle

Light used to shine through windows

And dance across specks

I’d watch them float like clouds

And settle like peace on surfaces

As I watched

The air would clear

And I would breath

Deep and fresh

Because all happened as I knew it would

But this time the roof shook

The dust flew

And the sun sank

And all I have is the sound of silence

As all of it swirls around me

This time there is no dance

But swinging punches

That I can’t see coming

There is no settling

Or at least that I can see happening

Because I’m laying in the dark

Holding my breath

Counting far past 10

#mentalhealth #poetry