True Intentions

I thought that you’d be different then all the other guys.. with your deep Cajun accent & that crooked smile. I should’ve known the moment you walked onto my porch that you’d be my next mistake but I was blinded, of course.

The way you adored all my flaws, from me snoring, to how I would eat, to how I couldn’t sit still even when I tried to be. It was all so amazing and to good to be true that I knew my gut instinct was saying the truth.

Your lips like velvet when you’d take time to kiss me slowly and passionately, I melted in those moments when you truly saw me. Inch by inch your true intentions began to appear, why you chose me from many became more and more clear, you saw my unconditional love for you as a easy opportunity. Opportunity to use the words “I love you”, empty and meaningless, to get what you craved feeding your momentarily happiness

It shows now more & more now than I am just an object to you.. it was never really about US, I just wanted US to be real and true.

I’ve let you cross boundaries that I never should have let you push, yet here I still am trying to appease you.

You literally just told me “suck his dick if you have too” with more honesty and emotion then I ever received before. I am your fuck toy you use as payment, your house whore to keep the house clean, your punching bag when your anger needs to vent and lastly your cunt for whatever else fits.

But maybe one day will come when I wake from a nights sleep and I’ll be stronger then you could have ever believe. Strong enough to say all this shit to your face putting into perspective what you will never replace.

You will never replace my dedication and devotion to you, my unconditionally love, or my pussy you crawl to. You will never replace my selflessness to always chose you over me, nor my gentle sweet kindness as I take care of you. Once you realize the damage you have done I will already be long gone with the damage you had done.