I’m here! (For a certain Mika-chan)
Notes: This is written for one of my best friends I met on Instagram. It’s sad that she decided to closed her DMs last night, however I would like to say that I am glad to be one of the last people she talked to before closing it, which makes me feel that she would not forget me easily. Although the closing made me cry a lot last night and well... Imma pour my heart out on prose. This is dedicated to my dear friend... Lory.
Opening:
We grown from strangers
to close friends
starting with a DM
that you sent.
No that you are closing it
I feel emptiness
Like a carrier without a soul.
Begginings:
It all started with that DM
On a Monday, 6am
I went on Instagram
and found you sitting in my requests.
We then talked a lot
From dusk till dawn,
morning till night
Spent every 24 hours
talking to you.
At first you were skeptical:
Who I was, what I am
Was I a creep?
A bot?
You won’t know.
But I assured you that
I was real.
One Month:
I spent my CNY celebration with you.
On the internet, sitting cross-legged on the sofa
burning data.
We talked our about our lifes on the other side of Earth
One in Asia, one in Europe.
You taught me so much about your land
I began to feel the real
Happy...
Two Months:
Two months passed as we talked
as the storm brewed on, bubbling.
However, we stood strong together.
We then started roleplays:
You as “Yuichiro”
Me as “Mikaela”
Two as brothers
Us as sisters.
Time flies:
As the months fly by,
the storm went out of control.
A gap of a wide, endless ocean
seperating us.
We all are depressed
We all grew distant
Narrowing down to a mere “How are yous”
Once in awhile.
Regrets:
I really regretted
Not talking to you
while we still could.
Now I know its too late
I am always too late.
Life is full of regrets
But I wanna say something.
Hopefully it won’t be too
Late...
“I will be here for you”
No matter where you go,
how far to you go,
where in society you lie,
I am here for you.
When you need advice, when you need to rant
When you just need help
Just remember
I’m here. Always here.
I am still your friend,
Your hope
Your torch
Your Determination.
Final words:
No matter where you are
Or whether this will reach you...
I just wish to tell you that:
“I am here for you.”
08.07.20
Your friend, Evie