Reason to live

To be honest I didnt know my reason to live until i pondered this all day and started wrighting. I feel like this question shouldnt be that hard. I've thought of the obvious which is living for my family and friends, but that doesnt seem to be what my mind wants the anwser to be. I think the real reason i live is to prove to myself that i can. Ever since birth I've been fighting to live. I had birth complications, than there was the period of time where i would forget to breath, then came bullying with countless nights of tears, then came countless disloactions and concussions. After that stuff got worse. I found out i have a genetic condition that affects every aspect of my body and will cause me life long pain, and most recently i found out i have heart issues and sometimes struggle to get up due to almost passing out. Now all of that felt needed to share in order for you to understand what i mean. My life has been a constant battle to be normal. My life purpose is to fight to live. Its more to prove to myself that i can live and i can still live normally. Despite all my appoiments and thearpys i still prove to myself that i can be like all the other teens. I struggle to go to school, but i do it. After school i could be done and go home, i mean its a big enough hurdle to get over but instead i do activities. I chose to join tech crew for plays and show choir since my body cant take being in them anymore. Sometimes i have to step back from all the actions that other techies can do but im there and i am fighting my body to let me live as normal as it can. I also do coding competions which are sometimes more do able than tech since it can be done from my bed, but the mental capabilities sometimes arent there when i cant even get blood to flow to my head. I still do it though. I challenge myself so that i have a reason to live, even if that reason it to have a normal life.

Sorry if this dosent make much sense. ive tried to edit but my brain sometimes goes faster than my hands