M U A

I will outline my eyes with black for the nights I didn't sleep because I kept thinking about how you don't miss me

I will hide the blemishes with a concealer and blend them against the things I'm too ashamed to tell you I've done

I will contour and shape my face and my body to fit next to yours even though we are destined to never touch

I will paint my lips red with the blood that lives forever under my nails from scratching myself because no matter what I do I can't feel anything

I will never stop trying to be close to you even though I will never be good enough because you are naturally immaculate and

I will never have the natural beauty that you deserve inside or out