I did not cum at all

The smell of car freshener takes me back

Back to a time I’d rather not go to

A certain phrase and I’ll get chills

Chills that freeze my body

I didn’t like you

I didn’t like myself

Thinking back and I regret so much

I was impatient and scared

The taste of your breath is still on my tongue

If I I swallow I fear I’ll lose it

Why am I afraid to let you go

I have no happy memories of us

There was no us

Only you

You came first

And I did not cum at all