Her Destroyed Defenses!

He had tore down all of her defenses in a matter of minutes, he was the first man who even got that close to her. She never felt  vulnerable before in her life, depent on someone, trusting so completely and openly at all. She had built her defenses up along time ago, she had started building them up since she was a little girl.

When the first defense fell she didn't know what to do, she wanted to run away and hide somewhere until she had repaired her defense. But he made sure that there was nowhere she could run and hide to, he wanted her to always run to him for everything. For the past seven years he took a sledge hammer to her defenses knocking them down even the new one's she would build in place of the old one's.

For the first time in her life she had started to feel safe, happy, loved and almost wanted. Her defenses we're completely destroyed by him, she can't picture herself without him. She knows that she can never make it without him by her side, he was the first man who made her feel like she could be stronger, unbreakable and untouchable to the world.

He gave her the courage to stand up to her family, he gave her the strength to fight and never give up. She was starting to get really  comfortable in her life with him, she was starting to think that all of her dreams was going to come true. She never wanted to leave or lose this happiness that she never thought or imagined of ever having,

Never even dared to hope for, speak out loud about or even dream about in fear that she would never have it. Now that she has had it she is running around like a chicken with her head cut off, because he tore down her defenses in a matter of minutes and then in a fluid motion he broke her heart into a million pieces over and over again; he has almost broke her soul and spirit along with her heart.

How much more abuse can she take in her life, he told that she was safe with him, that he would protect her, defend her and support her in whatever she wanted to do. Her only down fall was believing in him, trusting him with more than just money. She had completely, unconditionally and willingly gave him the key to her heart, now for the millionth time he has broken her heart.

Now the only question she keeps asking herself is can she stand on her own anymore, can she rebuild her defenses but this time stronger and higher up so no one can ever get through again. If she even managed to rebuild her defenses up again against him, and he chose to keep her with him because he realized that he can't and won't live without her. His love for her is stronger than his reason for wanting to break up with her. If she manages to rebuild at least half of her defenses higher and stronger up, will he be able to knock them down again in a matter of minutes.

Does he enjoy making her feel safe, loved, wanted, vulnerable, dependent towards him, having trust in him and daring to dream and hope once more with open arms. Does it make  him feel thrilled to know that she is completely and unconditionally under his spell, does he know how much power he really wields over her.

Does he get off on the fact that he causes her so much pain and hurt, especially when he tells her that other women look fine as hell. In his mind it doesn't mean anything but to her it means that he thinks she is ugly and not worth touching at all, he stopped telling her that she was beautiful completely.

When they first got together he never went one day without telling her that how beautiful she was to him, or how she made him feel with so much longing and wanting her. Now he makes her feel ugly, unwanted and useless, he puts her down in front of people. He makes people think that everything is her fault and he is innocent of everything.

He gets to keep secrets from her like the secret of being on every dating app on his phone, who he texts and talks to on the phone. She isn't allowed to ask him any questions regarding his phone or messages from people, when he leaves the house and doesn't come back until the wee hours of the morning she isn't allowed to get upset about it. He told her that if she can do it then he can do it to, but she doesn't do anything like that.

She would catch hell if she ever did that to him, she doesn't try nor does she want to control him. He has control over her and he makes sure she  knows who runs this house, he broke her defenses, then broke her heart into a million pieces and to add topping to the cake he told her that she is to become his sex slave.

He thinks he has complete control and power over her, because she does everything for him, so that she doesn't piss him off. He knows how much she loves him and would do anything for him. Even if that means making her feel like a whore, making her have sex with him and other people. Or even putting her through embarrassing potions, just so he can have a good hearty laugh at her.

By: Vera Rice!