Memories

Someday, someday...someday, maybe I’ll be loved

Someday, I’ll also be able to stand tall, brimming with confidence

Someday, I’ll laugh and cry proudly without a care

Someday...I’ll escape from this prison that’s chaining me down

If only one day, I can shrug off the murky hands that are making me stay

If only one day, I can blast away those judging states that pressure me

If only one day, I can live without someone making my road

If only one day, I can smile without others pouring rain on my fun

Why is everything so difficult?

While everyone is depending on god, and wishing for a better life

Is that better? Did it solve everything?

Why aren’t we doing something while everything is dissolving in front of us?

Who were we to beg others when we raised our heads high before?

The memories that stabbed me repeatedly,

Made it clear to me that I’m not welcomed here

So why can’t you let me go already?

I’m afraid to ask if you despise me because of your glare that bores into my skin

It’s scary and suffocating, and my resolve that I barely managed to have,

Wavers, and I end up being crushed again

When will this cycle end?

The warm memories that I barely have, leaves me hanging on a thin rope

The precious thread that ‘God’ lowered down to me was snapping without me knowing

Little by little, I found myself drowning

Ah, was this my fate?

That red string that’s pushed into the darkness?

And I can’t even cry, nor yell

But only to stay as a doll?

Why? Why? Why do I have to be like this?

Why was I born with such misfortune?

Ah! Ah! Ahhh!

The pieces are crumbling, and falling!

What should we do? What can we do?

Nothing. We just wait till we fall as well

What about me?

What about me?

Have I been forgotten?

What about me?

Can’t you turn around and face me?

Can’t you admit your mistakes so that my heart could just feel a bit lighter?

What about me, god?

Are you just going to leave me hanging like this?

I’m on the brink of death with my painful memories still intact!

What about me?