Truly Enough

Laying in bed, staring at the ceiling

Mind whizzing around and around

Similar to the fan doing its best

In keeping the heated bedroom comfortable

Summer heat...a subtle reminder of time slipping away

This brain of mine, playing games most cruel

Chanting words that are unkind, and untrue

‘Nobody cares about you, unless they need something’

‘You know I love you, right’

Knock, Knock, Knock

Insecurity and its friend, imposter syndrome

Are joining in on the fun

‘Are yout trying hard enough to find a job’

‘Why are you wasting time with writing when you should be getting a job’

‘No, maybe, nope’

Greetings to you brain

Have I some news for you

Counseling and daily walks

Keep me going, give my life meaning

There are people who care about me

We are apart due to COVID-19

Those who have reached out, inviting me places

Respect my boundary of isolation

I am trying my darnest to find ‘a job’

The proper fit has not come my way yet

Open up a job posting

You will understand how many strings are attached to the phrase ‘Entry Level’

Writing brings me joy

Writing helps me entertain others

Writing is a creative outlet & a job in of itself

Do what you can to tear me down

And keep this in mind

I will bend, and rebound

I will cry, and pat my face dry

I will sing at the top of my lungs while walking

And not care what others think

Why?

Because I am truly enough

Creative, Sensitive, Aware

Driven, Determined to reach my goals

All in due time