Dad.
After a certain point I got used to you letting me down
I got used to that one empty seat in the school's auditorium
Waiting around for the "sorry kiddo, couldn't make it" text became a routine
Sure, it hurt when you stopped apologizing for your absence
But, I had gotten used to you letting me down
It wasn't even surprising that you didn't call on my birthday
I've gotten better at not expecting an invitation to your house for holidays
Accepted that you have no interest in who I am
In return, I block out Father's day and deleted your contact
Which is ridiculous, because it's one of the only ones I have memorized
I used to think you were just incapable of doing the things other dads did
Until I saw that you were just incapable of doing them with me