Something for Christmas

All I want for Christmas is...something. I know that seems like a stupid answer, but that is all I know. There is something that I want. Maybe Christmas knows what it is. That is what I'm hoping anyway. Something is missing. It's not love, I have that. It's not gift cards, I do want that but those aren't the something. All I want for Christmas is...something that I want that I don't have it's...something. My life is on a halt. I've been waiting for it to move on, but it doesn't want to. I have a meaning in life, a purpose, that is not what I am looking for. I am looking for something else, something...I don't know. I wish I had the Christmas spirit. That decreases every year and I expected the same this year. I did have the Christmas spirit but I had it for a while and it got tired. It stopped and I went back to being normal me with no spirit. Do I need a spirit, not the Christmas spirit, just a spirit? I feel tasteless and gray. Being gray is just terrible. I don't know what I used to be...something. I was something and now I am gray. I need that something back. That is what I want for Christmas. I want something that isn't gray. Something I used to have, that I lost. Please Christmas I'm begging you. It's weird to beg to Christmas, but I don't believe in Santa. I don't believe in magic. Christmas you are all I have if you could please give me something I would be so grateful. Miracles happen this time of year, and maybe that's what I need. Just stir me up one of those special Christmas miracles that gives me back that something. Do you need specific details? All I know is I've been without it for a while. Just go through my life and find that something I had and wrap it up for me. Maybe put a note with it, with instructions. Instructions how to put it back into my life. If you can find it Christmas, maybe my friends know. They've known things before that I didn't know. Maybe my family would know what it is. Christmas please just find the something. Bring some of the Christmas spirit with you too, okay. That would be nice. If that's all you can get I will still be grateful. I just want something for Christmas. An explanation, a feeling, an answer, a hobby, a goal, a smile, a talent, a plan, a hope, just something, I don't know what it is. Please please bring me something for Christmas.