Never

Never could I ever endeavor to whatever forever

However,

I’m falling and spinning and clawing and giving

All alone in the world I am living

Sleeping and slaying and dying and trying

To find a purpose for breathing and crying

Broken and ugly, sullen, deluded

Forever a mutant in a sea of pollution

Blinded by a mirror of lies

Alive but dead surrounded by flies

Rotting and decaying

I’m gone but I’m staying

Forever trying to be more than I am

And miserably failing with no means to an end

It’s exhausting to be empty but full

A void

A hollow

A vessel identifiably null