can my crush please crush my heart already?

I want the fantasy I built up of you to be crushed. I no longer want to view you with rose colored glasses but with reality. The cracks in the fantasy ache in my heart. Please give me the release of all of the pain, let me see you more accurately. Let my unguarded heart be laid bare and let it break so I can create a new shell, tougher than the last one.

If it's possible, let the fantasy be crushed so I can like who you really are, not who I made you to be in my head.