A twist of events

The temperature drops..

I glance at the clock..

I can't help but sigh..

I guess I failed this time...

again..

I'm still breathing..

I'm still here..

I'm still wishing that leaving..

wasn't so hard, but I fear..

If I leave you want notice..

If I go you won't care.

If I'm gone, then I'm gone..

No, I know you're not scared.

You know I can't do it,

you know I don't have the guts.

You know that I'll try, and I'll cry, and sigh, and pray to God to die!..but..

I know, you know I'll hold on to the "buts"...

"But what if..." I lived another day...

"But what if.." I actually want to stay..

"But what if.." my parents don't make it..

"But .. what if.." you actually.. won't be able to take it..

What if .. the reason I'm here is for you to have someone,

not to hold or to love, but to have someone...

Someone you can talk to anytime of day or night..

Someone who'll guide you from what's wrong or what's right...

Someone who'll see past all your faults and stay and care..

Someone.. who's there for you .. when life's not so fair..

You know that I'd walk through fire and hell for you..

You know that I'd protect you with all that I am..

You know that I'd spend my last moments thinking of you..

You know I'll come back to life if I fucking have to...for you..

You know that.. right?..

Please know that..

Know and believe that..

Cause there isn't a bigger truth I know than all this..

I knew all this even way before our first kiss...

I knew it was you and it was me..

No matter where we would be..

You're still here in some way..

And I'll be with you and promise to not go away..

I won't leave you in your darkest moments..

I won't leave you even if you punched me in the face..

I won't leave you if everyone else does..

I won't leave until you can rest and breath and feel safe..

I promised many things,

And I remember every single one..

Some are harder than others..

But we'll take life as it comes.

I'll always have your back..

Even if you don't have mine.

I'll always care and that's a fact..

Even if it doesn't seem like it sometimes..

I'm here..

I'll always be here..

Even when I'm not..

Don't forget our spot...

...11PM on the dot

-MikeTheTranny