OUR STORY PART 1: 2nd of November
AN: This is a tribute to a year ago... on the 2nd of November my life changed in so many ways ... all thanks to one magical human being ... at the right time at the right place. Thank you.
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'Soulmates? I don't know if I believe in that stuff..' well I have to go to the youth church thingy in a bit. I bru my teeth, spray some perfume, make sure I'm looking top notch, aaaand I'm good! I hop on my bicycle, wave to the caretakers letting them know that I'm leaving, and make my way to the church.
'Wow. There are more kids here than I thought hehe.' I go to stand anxiously with the people I'm working with tonight. My job? I get to sing "I have decided to follow Jesus". Now, looking back, I can't even remotely explain the irony of me singing that and everything that happened after, it's justttt... well, you'll see.
Finally it's go time. We start acting and tell the kids they gotta get inside, but quietly! Otherwise the guards could hear us! Shhh! Not so loud! Ok, now we're all in the cellar, safe and sound. Our pastor begins to preach and we're all sat on the floor in a circle listening, when all of a sudden.. we hear a banging on the door. We freeze. "Hide the bibles!" someone whispers in frustration. "Open up! We're the police!", "We know you are holding a Christian sermon in there" they knock louder and finally manage to get in, as we managed to finally hide all the bibles.. the kids play along, which is great, and I'm still in character. After some snooping around and questioning and yelling, the guards take our preacher with them...
I still remember John saying "but I'm pregnant" when they were yelling aaand I broke character for a split second... and in that split second I noticed a beautiful young lady sat next to me laughing. Wow. No, I need to focus! Oh shit, it's my turn now! I have to sing and... I forgot the 2nd part, but luckily Tanja helps me and then eventually everyone sings the last part. I feel relieved and now I can go back to being me. Our real preacher comes to the front and asks us to budge more closer so we can hear the preaching better and so we do.
I move closer...and I notice this young lady is sat directly to my right. Yes, I took another glance. And I think she noticed cause..she taps me on the shoulder, I turn to look at her ...and I'm just blown away... I almost didn't hear what she said..
"Ich mag dein.. um dein..." (I like your.. um your...) and then she pointed to my tattoo. 'Oh, she likes my tranny tattoo lol', "Ah, danke! Dem halb ich selber gemahlt" (Ah, thank you! I designed it myself.), I say proudly. She smiles and nods.. what a beautiful smile.. and .. God.. those eyes.. man... how? "Was bedeutet das?" (What does it mean?) she asks. I remember again that I'm at a church where I'm part of the team that is in charge of this evening program and so I say "Ach, das ist was von meine vergangenheit..." (Oh, well that's just something from my past...) I awkwardly say whilst avoiding eye contact and she gives an understanding nod and we both refocus on the sermon. Atleast I tried. Haha. But I couldn't help it. So I didn't stop myself. And I'm glad I didn't.
I turn to her and ask "Wie heist du eigentlich?" (So, what's your name?) and she says "Ruth".... like the 'th' breathing out..yknow? So I was tooken aback a little and blurted "Ruth, like in English Ruth?" and the relief that spread on her face was priceless, "Yesss", she says. "Do you speak english?", I ask. "Yeah, I do. I'm actually not from here and don't really talk that much German yet hence the not knowing how to say tattoo in German", I couldnt help but notice a slight southern US accent and it sounded sweet, so sweet; we laugh. ... well, to be honest, "we clicked".
Every now and then throughout the sermon we would talk and make eachother laugh a lil. Then we were asked to put ourselves into groups of 2 and pray...we instantly looked at eachother, we smiled, and I asked, "Do you wanna sit outside to do this?". "Sure" she answers, whilst I let Tanja know I'll be right outside if she needs me, and she just gives me a knowing look, a nod, smile and a thumbs up. 'a.k.a. she was approving haha'.
Ruth and I sit on a bench beneath a tree right in front of the pool they use for the baptisms of this church. It's peaceful and we hear the nature around us and see the stars. It's beautiful...and she's beautiful.
"You know.. my tattoo is actually a trans tattoo." I mention, and this triumphant smile appears on her face, "I knew it!" she said. I couldn't help but laugh, "How though?", "The colors and the symbol..I dunno dude I just knew." she says. Oh! Are those butterflies I'm feeling? Why, yes they are! We start talking about LGBT stuff and bond over it and I'll never forget when she said, " ...for the Lord knows I'm a bottom." I had to contain myself, cause I did not expect her to say anything like that at all, but I love it. 'So she's, beautiful, intelligent, kind, smart, funny and witty... I think I really like her.'
It was just us two. Us two and we could've talked for hours and hours more... but eventually we did have to part ways. When her cousin called her to head home, that's when it hit me... 'WAIT...what if I never see you again?? What if what I feel isn't just me?? What if you feel like how I feel?? Oh my God.. I have feelings for her..' So I muster up my courage and ask her quickly if I could give her my number, and she immediately says yes. We hug a quick hug before she goes and I play a song she recommended me: Angela - The Lumineers... and on that 1 minute ride home.. I realized something... something I never before thought would actually be able to happen to me.. but I had fallen in love with this girl.. wow....
-MikeTheTranny