Please Let Me Grieve

Four deaths in five years, that broke me.

Never dealing with death until twenty-six, i thought I was lucky.

From suicide, to addiction, a sickness, followed by an unexpected o.d.

I wish my father in law knew how much we loved him, his loss dropped my husband to his knees.

I know my best friend loved me more than heroin, but it drowned her in it’s forever sea.

My Gram was my world, she loved me & showered me with belief, i would have given my lungs to help her breathe.

My mom passing took all of me, she wasn’t a junkie but the dr gave too many prescriptions that took her eternally.

I’m left without the most important people, daily my eyes are teary.

My son has that sparkle in his eye like my father-in-law had unknowingly.

After a day full of drama, I can’t call my best friend, those wretched drugs stole her away.

I know my Gram watches over me, but I need her here to help clear my mind‘s disarray.

Loosing my Mom shattered my daughters heart, it’s not hard to see those blue eyes filled with dismay

Please God or whoever you are, take it easy on us, we’re all trying to grieve in this family.

Each day I act strong since I’m the Mother, I can’t show my children that my heart beats with agony.

I try to be a good person in this life, are these losses punishment for who I was in my past life, is that the reason for these daggers within me?