Lost

I've been lost for so long

that I thought what we had

was love

I let you mold my mind

into mush

afraid of my own thoughts

unsure if they were mine

or yours

I couldn't find the courage to speak

maybe I had lost my voice

all those years ago

when I was free and alive

when the sun warmed my skin

and there was still

happiness inside of me

now all that's left

is this damp dark place

that swallows me whole

forever lost