I Wonder
I wonder if it was obvious
Could you see the stolen glances
They way my body inched closer to you like a magnet
Your pull on me had gotten stronger with every passing day
Brushing passed you in hopes that your scent would linger on me
I wonder if it was obvious
Asking for help knowing I could have done it alone
Sitting beside you whenever I had the chance
Watching your favorite movies just to be with you
Hugging you a little bit longer just to have you in my arms
I wonder if it was obvious
That I was infatuated with my best friend
Blushing whenever you looked at me
Hoping that you would finally see
That I was in love with you
My Monster and Me
Why didn't you stop me
Why didn't you pull me under
Claw at my flesh
Scream at me to stop
Instead you hid under my bed
Like a coward
Every night I waited
Praying you would come
I watched you lurk in the shadows
Never speaking
Keeping your distance
Even as the blood trickled down
You stayed away
Too afraid to approach me
I begged you to take me away
But you turned your back on me
And that's when I saw it
A glimpse of who I feared
The familiar face
Paler than I remembered
All the life had gone from you
From me
From us
Why didn't you stop me
Wendy Darling
Like clockwork, Peter had returned to 31 Kensington Park Gardens. Wendy's childhood home. She never moved, too afraid that Peter wouldn't be able to find her if she did. He had been visiting her every year of her birthday in hopes that her one wish would be to return to Neverland with him. He waited patiently outside her bedroom window, watching her great great grandchildren wish her good night. Throughout the years he' had seen so many new faces come and go but there was only one who had preoccupied his thoughts. Wendy had made him promise to move on, to forget about her but he couldn't. From the moment he had laid eyes on her he had fallen deeply in love with her. And now as he watched her aged form he realized she was still just as beautiful as she was the day he met her.
"Peter you can come in now." Her voice shaking him from his thoughts.
"I thought they'd never leave." He made his way through the window to her bedside.
"It's always a pleasure to see you Peter, how are the boys doing?" It had been years since she had last visited the lost boys. She was sure that there were more of them now.
"They miss you, they wanted to come but I wouldn't let them." He crossed his arms over his chest.
"Why not, it would have been lovely to see them all again." This is one of the many reasons Peter loved Wendy. She always cared for him and the boys, she was like a mother to the boys but she was something much more to Peter.
"Because they would have hogged you all to themselves and not shared." Wendy adored the boys but Peter was always her favorite lost boy.
"If I remember correctly you were the only one who didn't to like to share. " She let out a soft laugh. Peter had always wanted to capture her laughter and keep it in a music box. It was another thing about her that he loved.
"Wendy." She knew what was coming, it had been the same thing all these years.
"Yes Peter?" She looked at him through her glazed eyes holding in the tears she didn't want him to see.
"It's time for you to make a wish." He pulled out a small silk sack with Tinks special wishing dust inside of it. She opened her hand as he sprinkled a few in her hand.
"I want to go home." For the first time in a long time her voice was a bit shaky.
"All you have to do is close your eyes and wish for it." He was eager to have her in Neverland. He had been waiting for so long.
"No Peter, I want to go home. I want to see my Papa and Mama again." A single tear escaping down her cheek.
"NO! You have to come with me, you promised. " He hovered over her, watching intently.
"Peter I promised to stay with you for as long as I could and I have. I've grown so very tired and weak." She reached to cup his cheek.
"You can't leave me here alone, I won't allow it." He flung his body against hers, holding onto her.
"Please, Wendy let me take you to Neverland with me." This was the first time in forever that she saw Peter like this, so fragile.
"Peter, I've grown too old for Neverland. Please let me go, I want to go home." She held him close to her, hearing his soft sobs.
"Is that what you really want Wendy?" Finally facing her, he could see the longing in her eyes. As much as he wanted to keep her, to take her away with him he couldn't do that to her. He could never hurt her.
"Yes Peter, it's what I really want." And there it was, the twinkle in her eyes that she got whenever she was truly happy. That's when he knew that he had to give her up, to finally let her go.
"Okay Wendy, time to make a wish." He placed his hands over hers, closing them around hers.
" Thank you Peter for giving me the best adventures of my life." She leaned in and kissed his cheek. She closed her eyes and made her wish. Their hands began to glow from the fairy dust.
"I love you." It was his turn for his voice to shake.
"Just hold that happy thought Peter." Wendy had laid back, her eyes still closed.
"Wendy?" Peter called to her but he knew she had gone. The glowing of the dust had dimmed slowly until it was put out. Her wish had came true, she had gone home.
"I'll never forget you Wendy Darling....never." He covered her up, not wanting her to get cold. With a final kiss on her lips he was finally able to let her go.
7 Lovers
Lust came first in the form of Joseph. His every move was like liquid. He had a charm about him that drew you in. The way his eyes would seduce you with just a simple glance. His lips are what seal my fate. Like tasting from the forbidden fruit.
Like Greed, Hayes was unexpected. He consumed my every waking moment. His presence alone was all I wanted. I needed to be near him, to feel him in my arms. To know that he belonged to me.
I was a Glutton for Jude. I couldn't get enough of him. I had become obsessed with his scent and touch. I wanted to devour him. To taste every part of him.
I will admit Jai did scare me. His Wrath was unmatched by others. The way his eyes would darken out of nowhere. Like a light switch going off. I knew he was dangerous but he excited me. The sick need for an adrenaline rush.
Parker on the other hand took Pride in his ability to calmly settle any dispute in front of him. With him it was easy. He'd find a way to praise me, feeding into my ego. It was as if I was above everyone else and I took joy in that.
With Evan I was confused. One minute I would be thrilled for all his accomplishments and the next I was blinded by Envy. He got everything that I had wanted. Everything I had worked so hard for all those years but for him it came so easily.
Silas slowly crept up like a Sloth. Out of nowhere he had dragged me down with him. I had become too comfortable. This endless cycle of nothingness.
Shadow Play
I stood there in the dark knowing you could see everything, every part of me but i didn't care. I wanted you to see every inch and curve of my body. The way the light of the moon slid between my legs as I explored myself. I wanted you to want me, to crave me. I wanted you to hunger for me the way I hungered for you. My flesh on full display for you, an offering and sacrife for you to consume. I took pleasure in knowing that you would ruin me. I wanted you to own me, mark me as yours. Your sexual slave only serving you. I could feel your eyes piercing my soul as I entered myself. My body reacting,but calling to you. Your voice carrying in the night air, telling me to opem myself to you and I did. I took all you into me as I pleasuered myself. Our eyes never leaving each other. Your hunger growing with every wave of pleasure I felt. I could feel you coarsing through every part of me, melting me from the inside as the heat grew stronger. The pain and pleasure building up inside me. Your gaze holding me captive as I found the release i needed. My body convulsing in rapture as you fell back into the darkness.
Lost
I've been lost for so long
that I thought what we had
was love
I let you mold my mind
into mush
afraid of my own thoughts
unsure if they were mine
or yours
I couldn't find the courage to speak
maybe I had lost my voice
all those years ago
when I was free and alive
when the sun warmed my skin
and there was still
happiness inside of me
now all that's left
is this damp dark place
that swallows me whole
forever lost
Him
There is something about
him that excited me
maybe it was the unknown
always so secretive
and mysterious about his life
the way he saw the world
fragile and broken
I wondered sometimes
if he was talking about himself
always a million miles away
the way his thoughts would
consume him
but I never pushed for answers
too afraid that he'd pull away
too afraid that he leave my side
The Corpse
She laid quiet as a mouse
not wanting to be seen or heard
but it was impossible
not to see her milky white skin
as it glowed in the darkness
she could feel the warmth
of his presence
as he lingered so close to her
but never touching
she was a ghost to him
someone he imagined
to keep company
on nights like these
little did he know
that she was all too real
Star
There was something about her
that made the stars cling to her
perhaps she was magic
or not of this world
everything she touched
seemed to glow
the way her fingers
danced through the air
like the twinkling of the stars
the way her eyes lit up
like the night sky's
her smile as wide
as the crescent moon
there was something about her
and I was intrigued by this
strange and unusual being
watching as she traced her lips
with the stars on her fingertips