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For me, it was a curious case

For even as young as I was, I never considered myself a female

While some may brag about it, I find it rather curious

as normally young ones are susceptible to their environments in the first place

Gender felt like it didn't exist for the longest time

And with other kids, I couldn't rhyme

Neither could I identify the way that others decided to

And I suppose even teachers didn't know what to do

Perhaps even at such a young age I subconsciously knew

The fact that what other girls did I couldn't do

I tried to fit in, I truly did

But quickly couldn't relate with another kid

Never did I feel attracted to people based on looks

Neither did I strive to be every man's cooks

While they'd talk about boy bands and athletes at school

I was only confused and wondered why they were cool

Unfortunately for my guardians, this was not a phase

For it followed me to my current days

never would I see the day where I longed for a dress

Or for my hand held in marriage, something elders say I'll have regrets

I didn't even like my name

As it didn't match what I felt, it was not the same

So I let people call me whatever

And tell them my legal name? Never

It wasn't until I was far older that I was told about transgender

And realized that I what I felt was not abnormal, that I didn't need a mender

So for me it feels abstract and was always there

And it's something that you find at your own pace with high care