Sky Talking
Explain the matrix that
I've been caught in.
A moth to the fire
So I'm gone with the wind.
Let's pretend I have it all
Under control and
Having a grip on reality
Wasn't just an illusion.
Peace is eluding me.
Get closer to God....
Is what I tell myself.
Chasing after love,
It's forbidden.
No, she chose another.
Through bed cuddles
And love letters,
Hides the pain of the past.
Frontlined wars and wrote
Out the victim's names
In blood in bold letters
All scars are shown,
I'm naked to you now.
But you don't care.
Damn, I'm dumb for believing
Otherwise. Took me awhile to
Realize I was the prize,
But I have come to realize
I miss my stepdaughter,
She was my pride.
But fuck love, I don't have time
To be sprung now.
Grandma's cancer is in stage
And it's rapidly spreading.
It's Paw Paw all over again now.
This is wild.
Chasing after a woman,
Meanwhile everything around me
Is falling apart.
Dearly departed.
Can you compartmentalize these
Emotions, they are flowing,
But on the surface I show very
Little. Staple a S to my chest
In hopes that would make me
Stronger than what I am.
At least put up a facade because
It's someone out here doing even worst
Than me.
My life isn't mine anymore.
Don't take offense to it.
I'm just being honest you see.....