Daylight

On days like today when I wake

And I can't find an escape

From the things in my mind that plague.

Got some news the other day

Sort of messed up my day.

And still to this day

I am dealing with heartbreak

Alone that she left me here to face.

So a smile on my face is a nice

Change of pace.

It's really my way of coping and pretending

That I am okay.

Of course I made my mistakes,

But how much longer do I have

To suffer? As this pain grows bigger

Like a never-ending earthquake.

Sorry, I can't be there for you on this day.

On this day I have lost all focus, all hope.

Maybe later, I will figure out this slope.

They are giving me the rope,

But hell isn't kind so I must decline.

Unmotivated...

Indoctrinated,

But still my resume isn't up to

Their standards.

Silence is so loud when you're in purgatory.

Give God the glory

Even in times like this because at least

I have a finish line to look forward to.

I know nobody listens but,

I still cry out.

Maybe tomorrow, I'll be able

To shut the noise out.