The definition of being an outsider.

Most of the time, I feel out of place on this Earth, like I don't belong. I walk around and view people in their pursuits, attempting to figure out their purpose in life, and I think to myself, shucks, where do I fit in?

I'll be at the local Panera, and the cashier will ask me to leave a tip.... I'm like, "Well if the service was perfect, sure, I'll tip you." Since when did fast food restaurants starts requesting tips for to go orders?

I'll be walking in a group of financially well off people, and not feel to comfortable around them. I stutter, and pray to God, that he understands, that it is meaningful, when people see me in public. I need to be careful in everything I do.

When I'm surrounded by a group of people, who know how to interact in society, and I feel out of place, I feel bad for them, because they're not me. They see me and recognize who they're witnessing. I hope I don't overlook anyone anymore. Most people in their minds, say no to me observing them, but if they're in my direct line of sight, I'm not going to avert my eyes on their account.

I wear a suit to work everyday. Should I? Once or twice I'll leave the top button undone, just to relax (On Friday's that is)... People respect the coat of armor though, I'll be walking and they will get out of my way. I don't want people to avoid my path of walking though, I suppose the suit is who I am, in a way, it defines my features, accents my jaw line, and puts everyone into perspective.

At an office job, do you think people on the other line, know that I'm wearing a suit? I don't, how could they tell? One thing to consider is, I'm invincible when I wear it, whose gonna mess with me with a brand new tie on? I place myself in the shoes of my boss, and think, boy, he's in a suit, that sure does look good for our company.

Now that I'm evolving, I'm feel more comfortable in society. I've been purchasing all the requisite items, needed to fit in. I exercise every day and keep in good shape. I will marry well. People will all play a vital role in the marriage decision of eternity.

To sum it up, I've done pretty well for myself. Things are only going to improve from here, and as we as as people, continue to grow, we will learn the principles of equity, health, and education.

Genuinely,

GN