Something in the Silence Breaks

Hello

Here i am, she said.

Here i am,

Here i am.

The things i want

are not the things

i get.

But there is no thought of

want

I can complete

so there is nothing

for me

(there has been everything for me)

The want i once had

is now a void.

I wanted feelings

and lives

to blend with my own.

But I cannot touch

what is invisible

to me now.

The lives that went

somewhere

i cannot reach

cannot feel

cannot sense.

I turn and

turn

try to see

where no sight

exists,

in a darkness that

renders me blind,

a mystery that makes

no sense.

Maybe our Souls

continue to exist,

and you are here right

next to me

but I am just

unable to see

the bliss.

And so I hurt and sink

and struggle,

drowning in my ignorance.

All this I do not know,

cannot know ,

this is what must be

Hell.

The absence of knowledge

the frustration of no hope

a helpless denial

no more roads to seek

the ends of,

No conclusions to be had.

Just the struggle that always there

as I try to have belief

in this Life

which has been granted to me.