A feeling

Years have passed since you came in

Unexpectedly, like a storm.

You made me question everything

All that I knew before changed form.

My world fell and so have my nerves,

So I buried myself in denial

To put everything back on my terms -

A safe distance from your ambiguous smile.

I went through all stages of grief

As I willingly ripped my heart out.

Our interaction, although brief,

Left a deep mark, clear and loud.

I thought it was fear, or anger;

I thought you were wrong and I was right.

The sight of you made me lose my temper

Or end up in a "fight or flight".

I spent forever to come up with a name

For this awfully bizzare experience -

I tried everything and nothing came

Nor could I cause its disappearance.

It persisted with Herculean might

Piercing the layers it was under.

Finally, it had been brought to light,

Released from this prolonged slumber.

A feeling that I hesitated to define -

Powerful, bright and pristine.

A feeling that resists through time,

Mindbending, euphoric like a dream.

A feeling that awakes my soul,

An endless game of run and chase,

A feeling that I can't postpone

Nor cancel, drown, or replace.

Years have passed since you came in

And after all, today I know

This feeling that has crawled under my skin.

Finally, now, I can let you go.