i knew you once

I had seen you, of course, before we really got to know each other

But now that I have truly seen you,

All of your scars, your hurts, your pain,

But also your love, your trust, your passion,

I wish I could go back to before we knew each other,

And take some time to really notice you.

I realize that I took some things for granted;

Your caring eyes,

Your warm smile.

I just want it back.

I wish we could undo what we did,

go back to being friends,

so that I'd at least have you in my life,

rather than being complete strangers

Who happen to have a history as lovers.

Or maybe I just want to understand

how you could run back to her so easily.

You told me when we started talking that she manipulated you,

tried to control you,

and never trusted your word.

I swore I'd be her opposite,

and I would rather die than break that promise.

I kept my word,

loved you,

trusted you,

but all that got me was hurt.