I love you

I remember,

the first time I said

"I love you"

and truely meant it,

my hands shook,

my mind raced,

and my heart feared.

feared you'd reject me.

feared you'd hurt me.

but you said it back

and you truely meant it.

the words

"I love you"

became meaningless

I no longer love

your face

your smell

your hands

your voice

the way you smiled

the way you held my hand

the way you noticed so many things

that other people couldn't be bothered to

I can no longer say

"I love you"

but I can say

I'm sorry.

because when I hear those words from you

all I wanna do is cry

for what we once had.

for what we lost.

because when he says it

my heart jumps,

my lips smile,

and I can feel it in my soul

that he means it.

because I love

his face

his smell

his hands

his voice

the way he smiles

the way he holds my hand

the way he notices so many things about me I hardly cared to think about before he came along

more than I can ever remember loving you.

but I know.

I know that love was once strong.

I know that love was once real.

because I'm sorry.