Life

I don't know why we are here. I don't know the point of life. That has held me back a lot and still does and I think its always going to. I have lived with depression my whole life and it really hit me in the 7th grade i'm a junior in high school now and i would like to think i'm over it now. I got through it by myself and talked myself through it. Recently I have taken a lot of interest in twloha, or to write love on her arms, it's helped me a lot recently. 

I have my first endocrinologist appointment on September 13, 2016. I have thought about going on hormones for two years now and I still don't know if it's right for me. I think it is and I have gone through periods of my like where I thought it was the best thing for me, and other times where I wasn't sure and now i'm not. I hope it is though.

I like the twloha shirts and I have a few I wear a lot of them but i'm scared to wear some of them out of the house. I'm still not confident enough in my self to believe and stand up with what i believe in and agree with.

I want to matter in life but I also want to be happy, and right now i think i'm worrying too much about the matter part.