Silent Screaming

My skin is crawling with disease

My thoughts are racing with such ease

And as my vision starts to blur

I know they'll never find the cure

I'm stuck with restlessness of mind

My coping skills, I have applied

But nothing saves me from my head

This voice inside, it wants me dead

Just when I think you've left for good

And free my body from this hood

You circle back & hit me hard

Reminding my flesh why it's scarred

I start to panic & deflate

Breathe in the fumes of all my hate

It fills me up with poisoned views

I need to cut, I need to use

Once I was brave & full of hope

But now I'm weak & cannot cope

Surrounding walls, they bleed to black

I'm unprepared for this attack

Around my throat, you tie the noose

To stop this cycle of abuse

I kick the chair & end my pain

An undetected withered vein