Headcase

I can feel myself getting better

But then my head says never, never, never

I can feel myself losing all control

There's a moment where I kill myself

Just a moment to be someone else, else, else

A single moment to feel whole

My brain has flipped another switch

My bones begin to shake & itch, itch, itch

I can't help but self-destruct

Chemicals combining that should not

My conscience starts to rot, rot, rot

Now my recovery is fucked

A bitter scent trails through the air

I'm on my knees to say a prayer, prayer, prayer

I've lost all sense of time

I've come to terms with feeling broken

Embrace the words you've spoken, spoken, spoken

This deceit should be a crime

False is now consuming what is true

I wish to start anew, anew, anew

I can feel myself getting better

The pills are finally kicking in

Let happiness begin, begin, begin

But then my head says never