Will you miss me when I pass away?

Songs about leaving become more realtable each day

Bottleing shit really hurts, have to do it everyday

Really harmful words, killing myself slowly

Bet you would ingore me, i'm used to it

Bet you would stop hurting after a week,

Bet you would think about the attention that I would seek

Getting help is a stupid thing to do, according to you

Is killing myself the right thing to do?

It's crying again. I check to see what it needs, just a diaper change. I head back to bed.

I can't help but think of my past mistakes before I sleep. Why did I have to do it with her of all people?

was it because she was famous?

or was it because she was hot?

either way she left me for that damn "job" of hers and made me take care of the child. She even lied about being on the pill.

"I don't believe that we should abort children, even if they don't have a heartbeat."

that was her bullshit excuse. My cheeks feel hot and my blood presure is rising. I honestly can't fucking do it anymore.

I call her, but not to my suprise she doesn't pick up. I open up my laptop and look up her name to see of she was working. I was suprised, to see that she was offline.

I should forget about it. maybe the kid shouldn't see her, ever. It's ovious that she doesn't want to see them, so why should I go out of my way and find her. I'm too upset to go back to bed, and the baby starts crying again.

"Don’t worry, I’m right here."

He had said while hugging his girlfriend.

The one who was known for having panic attacks in the middle of the night.

The one people were always talking about.

One day the girlfriend asked: "Don't you care about what people say about me? Why do you stay? I feel like nothing but a burden to you..."

The boyfriend simply laughed and said: "You are anything but a burden to me. You are the most caring person in my life, and thats saying a lot. People who judge you are people who never felt true love in their life. I would do anything for you, and don't ever think you are never 'good enough' in my eyes."

This had made the girlfriend cry, but not in her usual sadness, but happiness that she hasn't had in years. when the boyfriend nodices he says:

"I'm right here"

What is the most mudane thing to do on this planet?

is it doing chores?

doing online work?

even getting ready for the day?

I don’t think it’s any of that. I think it’s the fact that we always expect somethig to be big and fun, but in reality, it will always be boring to the human mind. We should take time out of our day to look at the most boing things in human nature, wether thats auctual nature or the most mudane task of the day. Insted of looking at doing chores as if it's a creature, think of it as a contest with youself to get it done as fast as possable. If you have online work to do, think of it more as a learning oppertunity. if your jnust getting ready for the day, think of the people you might meet today and think about how you would want them to see yourself.

At the end of the day, nothing in life is truly "boring". Who knows your attude might be boring...

once upon a time a

new girl who had come to manhatten

emersed herself in

the new place she

wanted to see with her date

on the

street lights she

even goes to a

vip party where she sees all sorts of celebrities

envy is around her as she is sourded by her favourite celebrites

nervous she asks for a autograph

the celebrity is more then happy to give it to her

her mind is ashing herself “is she dreaming”? the young girl is

reminded that it shouldn’t matter since she and

everyone is

enjoying themselves tonight