I’m Falling
And I’m falling, I’m falling
Into a bitter abyss
I’m falling I’m falling
I could have never imagined this
I thought with time things would change
But years have past and it all remains the same
And I’m falling I’m falling
Deeper and faster than before
They tell me to “Let go”
They say “It’s just a show”
How could they possibly know
I see you, I see me
We will never be free
And I’m falling, I’m falling
Into a bitter abyss
Will this ever change?
Will it always be this way?
Will I die when a stray bullet comes my way?
Will my sexuality be my undoing?
And I’m falling, I’m falling
Into a bitter abyss
I can’t save you
You can’t save me
I never imagined this
And I’m falling, I’m falling…
Hope
Until now I'd lost all hope. The elves had all fallen. The fairies had never shown. The dwarves looked like they planned on giving up. We were losing the war. Hope was a thing of the past. Then I saw her riding up on a unicorn. Sword in hand, this human woman, the only human on this side of the way besides myself. She looked as though she could be a goddess. I knew in an instant that we could win this war. Though I was uncertain why. Why would I have such faith in this one soul? I believe it was the look in her eyes. She looked determined. I knew what we were fighting for. I knew in this moment that determination can bring hope back. I picked up my sword. Death may take me but if it did at least I will have died fighting. Suddenly along side the only other human, I had hope. Maybe the fairies would join us. Maybe the elves hadn't all fallen. Maybe the dwarves weren't going to give up. I knew for certain I wasn't going to give up. Hope. It might just win this war after all.
Without You
Without you by my side, I don't know how I'll get by.
Without you to hold at night, I don't know if I'll be alright.
Without you to cuddle me, I don't know how I'll be.
With you gone, I don't know how to go on.
I miss the way you cuddled into my lap when I'd come home.
How you never made me feel alone.
I miss how you'd sleep in my bed each night.
And made sure I'd sleep alright.
I miss how you'd give me kisses randomly.
I miss you, can't you see?
I miss your soft meow.
I know I'll be okay but I don't know how.
Without you I'm lost, I'll be found but at what cost?
Without you I'm falling apart, you're still a part of my heart.
Innocence Lost
You look at me
And all I see
Is emptiness
A dark soul
Like I’m looking into the abyss
You don’t remember do you
Do you?
Do you still hear my scream
When I woke up from a dream
It turned into a nightmare real fast
They say its in the past
But I still see you standing over me
I still feel the revulsion
Of what you were making my hand do
I thought I was better
Okay at least
One look at you
And I was back on my knees
Begging God please
Take my life
Make me forget
Make this torment end
I blamed myself
For years it had to be my fault
7 years old
I blamed myself
No punishment did you receive
But I receive mine every day
Even when I think I am okay
But I’m not
I never will be
You took that innocence from me
You Aren’t Around
I stopped keeping you around
What good would you be to me now
But oh when I see you on TV
Or in person I think it is meant to be
I just want to feel your touch one more time
Remember when I was yours and you were mine
I miss the sweet touch of your blade to my skin
Maybe we could do that again
The way you so deliciously cut in to me
It made me feel free
But I don’t keep an X-ACTO knife close by
Because if I do I might just die
I’d crave your kiss every night
I wouldn’t be able to fight
I’d let the blood flow
I’d have to just let go
The Truth Is
The truth is
My smile is bright
But it doesn't reach my eyes
The truth is
You won't notice
You never do
The truth is
I show the world my love
But I don't feel theirs
The truth is
You think I'm happy
But inside I am dying
The truth is
I can't keep living like this
I might just die
The truth is
I might want to
Three Weeks
Three weeks.
It kind of makes it hard to speak.
Three weeks.
Even then it was only for two minutes.
You wanted something.
I couldn't give.
So three weeks.
It has come to this.
What will happen when I'm gone?
When three weeks doesn't seem so long?
What will happen then?
Who will you turn to?
Three weeks.
I'm not sure I can stick around
Three weeks.
Cutting in to me so deep.
Three weeks.
Maybe I should just let go.
Maybe I should just say goodbye.
But what's the point.
Three weeks.
There is no need.
It is done.
It died three weeks ago.
Hope You Forgive Me
Hope you can forgive me
For being born
I know I didn’t choose to be
And you’re the one that gave birth to me
But I still hope you can forgive me
Hope you can forgive me
For not dying that day
I tried, I honestly did
But I guess I even fail at this
Hope you can forgive me
For the days I find happiness
Those seem to hurt you the most
I never wanted to cause you pain
Hope you can forgive me