Once upon a field of snow

You'd whisper truths to me

That I'd need not know

Your hands interlaced

With a past lovers embrace

Fingertips as cold as ice

So I'll lay you down to rest

Baring my hand upon your chest

In an attempt to soothe your tired heart

Whilst the world around us falls apart

Amongst the wilting flowers we breathe

As the dawn chorus echoes freely

The birds singing their song

I'll look to you fear free

And we'll both sing along.

Gold drips from tulips

Blooming proudly in the dark

Settling in to stay

Like mother always would

On a rainy day

Scents of hope ride

On the thin gloomy air

Only to crash and burn

Upon entering the room

in which our hearts reside

"You deserve better"

Mother would always say

As if it was what I were after

When all I ever wanted

was for her to stay

For when the sunlight reflected

homes true colours

With bags packed

She went away

Searching for the same sunlight

On leftover cloudy days

A crack on the head

A fatal impact to my breath

Expressions of the void

To which I dare not tread

However within the void

There is a thunder strike -

A memory that never seems to fade

In the midst of growing mist

Coating the childhood fields I know

There is a glimmering beacon -

that forever seems to grow

Of the time Susan, my dear

You wrote me that letter

Of how you wished you were here

Bearing promises that I'd get better

Not once did I think you'd be one to leave

I always felt so safe

From the gentle ways in which you held me

A beacon of hope turned sour

Shrouded by cobwebs

Festering sentiment filled dust

Getting caught up in all of my longing and dead lust

So I pick up my pen

And to you I write my letter

"I promise you Susan,

Yesterday, the void was better."

If we are never meant to be

I'll hope you don't remember me

Sentiment blocking broken drains

Whenever the torn clouds rain

So I'll leave you with a final kiss

But please don't remember this

For when the rain does come

To wash your touch away

I'll hope and pray

That perhaps one day

You'll find it in your weary heart to stay