I am learning that reading is something I can’t do and I don’t want to. Why would you dare do something that is hard? Because it doesn’t look like english to you. It feels like the end of the world because you can’t do this one thing and it is because everyone else can and you don’t know what to do about that. Hey future you do you still have this problem? How do you read homework and other thing?

12 year old

Dear me

I don’t know what I am doing with this girl I am texting. But I like it and I am not going to think about it. And who would find out about it. Also why would I stop texting her, she makes me feel good inside. And never like my ex boyfriend, he made me feel bad and weird. Why would I ever do that to myself? But think got crazy with her and i was scared, What would that mean from me. And i didn’t want to know ,what that would mean for me. So i ended thing with her tell her that I didn’t like girl at all. Hey future me why did i like talking to girl? Why didn’t like guys that away? I hope you know why?

13 year old

Dear me

I am still friend with her. And she hurts me each day , I am friend’s with her. But someday she sent me happiness and I know she not good for me but i can’t let her go. And I don’t know if I want to. And he like me and he is the only one. So I need to like him to and I think I do. There are feeling in my chest i just don’t know if they good or not. You might know why i do these things to myself? I hope you do know and you stop doing it?

14 year old

Dear me

I feel like my live is over and because of my 12 year old why did I sent out that photo? And why I am friend with a girl who used to bully me and no she still doesn’t. I feel sadder each day. And my guy relationships are not work out no matter what I do and I don’t know what to do about it. You might why my guy relation never work out? I hope that photo is no longer a problem for you?And please tell me that you are not still friend with her later in life.

15 year old

Dear me

I wanted to forget that summer and I am, because denial is fun. I feel sad and sad each day of my life and i don’t know what to do about it. But writing is there for me and seem like the only thing. I don’t like handing my life like this so sad and i don’t want to. I think I like some guy maybe not. Hey can’t you help because i don’t like living like this? I hope it not like this for you anymore? And why do like being dominant? I think don’t like guy that way?

16 year old

Dear me

I just came out as gay and I am scar of what everyone is going to think of me. I never even had a girl ,but I did kiss a girl it was better than any kiss I had with a guys. But each night I would cry myself to sleep and say that “ you will wake up, one day not gay”. But it never work and I would try to blocked my feeling for girls. I get depressed and want to be happy. I hated living like this day to day. And to top it all of my parent didn’t believe when I told them and so I could never go up to my mom and say I like this girl. And me and my sister keep on fighting all the time and i don’t know what to do about it. My mom doesn’t understand me half the time. But then everything changed and she came in my life. I guess you could also say she came back in my life. She was a old friend of mine and I feel things for her. We started dating it was amazing. She being my world and I fall so deeply in love with her and I was no longer sad. Each day with her was so amazing. She pulled me out of the dark and she give me so much light that I suffocate in it. But after about 5 mouth of dating her she ended thing. I felt like my life was over. I guess you could say after sometime i was okay not great. But good and I better I didn’t feel that sadness. About 3 or 2 mouth i had new girlfriend and it didn’t last long but it told me that wasn’t going to be the only girl i was going to date. I was gay and that doesn’t matter. You are me i am so happy i hope you still are. And i hope mom finally stop denial that her daughter is gay? Find true girl, you fall for girls that going to break your heart and it beautifully. But someone might break it so bad that you won’t never want to fall in love again.

17 year old

Dear me

Back to school, class going. I used to have someone special. But mom find out and end thing with us. She didn’t like that was a girl. It suck but i knew she wouldn’t like it at all. But a part of me hope that she would get it. I am still 17 and a lot more will happen to me. Also i am so ready for it.

I hope one day I won’t have write a little to you. But i like know that my future yourself might know that everything will be okay. And you don’t alway know that.

Part 2

The answer letter

Dear 10 year old me

That reading problem is still here but it doesn’t matter that much anymore.It not the end of the world and it okay. Here is a lot more that will happen to you and it will be okay to. Your 10 year old life just started don’t worry about that.

Dear 12 year old me

I get it you're scared but lying to yourself not the answer at all. Maybe you thought that nothing would happen and you and that girl mean nothing. But you know that girl mean something more than friends. It will be okay and you learn how to be okay with it. It won’t be end of the world, if you don’t like guy.

Dear 13 year old me

Stop being friend with toxic friend I don’t know why you let people do that to you. Stop dating guys they don’t make you happy. Life is not what it seem to be and take a different path so you will be happy. But if you did everything i told you to do wouldn’t be you. In 2 year life will get real hard but keep move and time you will find answer to thing that you need answer to.

Dear 14 year old me

That photo doesn’t matter, move on. That girl might be mean to me but in the future she not a problem. What are you doing still dating guy your crazy you don’t even like them. But it okay and i get it you didn’t know any gay and you should of knew that it okay to be different, everybody act’s different that is what keeps the world turning.

Dear 15 year old me

Hey you that summer will tell you everything about your future.So don’t forget it, even if it hurts to remember it. It won’t hurt in the future. Also you think you like guy because shouldn’t you. Everyone is supposed to say yes if you are a girl. But that isn’t true that is why you feel sad inside because you have bevelie this lie everyone has told you. So start being happy.

Dear 16 year old me

Sadly mom still have won’t believe me but it okay. You do date some girls but and alway do get heart broken because you fall fast and you just do. Yes you are still happy very much so.

Hey reader

These are my secret if you read this I think you will be okay if you know them. This is all true and what i was try to do with this is if I would have got letters from my future self i would be a different person and i wouldn’t be as confused