When I first met you, I didn't know we'd be this close. I didn't know you'd be on my mind this often. Or that saying your name would bring a smile to my face. Now, I can't even imagine not having you in my life. One day was all it took for me to fall in love with you. One eternity that I want to spend with you. You will forever be my best friend, my lover, my soul mate and my companion. I could not live without you. Although it's a short time, you don't need to know someone for years to know you're in love...

Why are you always smiling?

How are you always so happy?

These are common questions she always heard. She never knew what to respond. She just was very happy. The night she stayed up late crying she realized why. She had been hiding it this whole time. Even she had believed the lies she told herself. "I'm okay", "I'm fine", "I don't need him." All this pain she kept bottled up burst. Only then she realize how sad she was. How useless she felt. To the world she seemed so happy but she new she was far from it. No one could ever understand her pain. No one could ever listen to her without judging. She was lost in this great world. Night after night she cried herself to sleep, and every day she would plaster on the fakest smile she had. Act the happiest like always. Tell herself more lies just to make it through the night. No one would ever know just how sad this happy girl was.

Last night I finally told my parents. I told them everything. My mother supportive as always but my father disappointed. I feel like I've let them down. I'm not the daughter he hoped me to be. My mother forever proud of me. My father though, he wanted me to follow through. He told me all this work was a waste of time. Please forgive me dad. It's not my dream anymore. I don't want to be a firefighter anymore. I do adore it but I've changed my mind. I want to study something different. Maybe become a writer or a teacher or maybe an artist. I don't know what I want to be honestly but I do know being a firefighter is not something I want to become. Please support me though this journey.

You were my first

For many things

I regret none

I was more than just a fling

I was afraid of love

And the pain that came along

Pushing you away

Because I wasn't strong

I miss you so much

From our daily conversations

To our midnight calls

You were my beautiful temptation

One thing I do regret

Is pushing you away

I love you so much

But I though it was better if you didn't stay

You are my one true love

You will always be

I'm sorry for the pain I caused

I hope you can forgive me

I didn't cherish you

Like I should have done

Taking you for granted

When you were my sun

You'll find a girl

Who will deserve your love

She will be all I wasn't

Your angel from above

Just know I did love you

I was just blind

It took me a while to realize

You are the best I'll ever find

Goodbye one last time

My beautiful dove

I'm letting you go

My one true love

It's too soon

I don't want to feel this yet

It's happening to quickly

You make my smile

You make me laugh

I love talking to you

I love your voice

We have so much in common

But I don't know what this is

Is it love

Or is it admiration

Maybe just lust

Please If it is love

I hope you feel the same

The best night of my life

Finally taking a step

Into the real world

Alongside my friends

And support of my family

Hoping us all the best

Going through this challenge

Known as life

Getting to where we all want to be

Achieving out goals

Going far in life

As of now all I can do

Is thank my teachers

For all they had done

Preparing me for my future

It was our time to fly

Fly into reality

Congratulations

CLASS OF 2015

Everything hurts

I don't want to move

You left your mark

What did you want to prove

All you did was insult me

When I gave you my all

But you didn't care

When I brought down my wall

You knew it was hard for me

But you always insisted

I trusted you

But your trust for me never existed

You broke me

I can't forgive you

My cheeks permanently stained

With the tears that made it through

This pain I feel

Seems never ending

But soon I'll become numb

To the love you were pretending