If we are going there...

I think the most things I say to my friends are things I should say and do myself. Never had the courage I guess, it's normal stuff like believe in yourself , you're worth it, don't mind what they are saying , you are beautiful, you matter etc

I write them whole ass paragraphs about how I would always be there for them and beat anyone up if they even try to say that they are not beautiful, smart, worth it, loved .

Sometimes it does hurt to know the fact I could support someone so much when I can't say one single fuckinggood thing about me, that everytime I look in the mirror only bad things come out:

" You can't do anything ! Why are you like this ? What's wrong with you ? Am I that horrible that no one shows interest in me ? Am I good for anything ? "

The list goes on and on with this sort of thing. Crying myself to sleep because of comments that should mean nothing:

" You put on weight.You could use those cream more. You should take care of yourself more ."

I should just love myself ...it should be easy.

key word : should

Nothing is easy in life and I think most of us know this by now. But here is the thing loving yourself should be easy cause it's you.

So this goes out to all the lost souls out there that are just looking for something that might change their life, go to the first mirror that you see . You found it. Now go and change your life if you want too, go and scream from the top of your lungs that you love who you are. Go have fun cause life is to fucking short ! Even if you are stuck inside for now you could make changes and you could start the life you want, fight for it !

Cause you are worth it and loved and wanted and anything else !

Sam was looking for his brother that apparently has disappeared into thin air. It has been moughts since Hope has vanished and no one was taking this good especially Nathan as he is blaming himself. Jo was just devastated and could not even start thinking of the worst yet. Chris was trying to keep an eye on Nate as good as he could but he was sort of playing as Nathan kept disappearing on him. Faith was trying to locate her cousin but not much luck in that as no spell seem to ......

Lexie was running wild from theough the hospital trhat her sisiter was in, Alex got the call but he got stuck at receptions and apperantly she got a call too. She could not thuink as her feet were taking her to her sister. As she reached the room she was in she open the door, seeing a blonde women she knew to well in the hospital bed.

"Well, I tought I would find you here !"

"Hi, Lexie ! Good to see you !"

I know is nothing but i wanted to try it, it sounded fun ! And it was wish I time for more.

I wrote this as a one - shot on my way to school ( i have an hour to kill somtimes something creative happends !)

Pidge and Allura were badly hurt during a battle, and had to be put into the pods the healing was taking an eternity or that was how the PALADINS felt. They were going crazy without their girls around.

Without Allura birthing their days with that smile of hers, and with the energy she was given, of course the PALADINS were annoyed with her sometimes due to the fact she was training them too hard but they knew she had to be the Space Mum from time to time.

Allura helped them in many ways and it was hard imagining her not being around anymore.

Shiro was feeling like someone took a part of him which they did. Allura was a part of who he was now, she is the reason why he had Black and why he had a chance of saving his friends and the universe, she believed in him, accepted him for who he was. Since she has been in the pods, he realized how much he missed their late night tales, they often managed to find each other in the living room or in the kitchen in those sleepless nights, so they talked for hours telling different stories. Shiro told her about Earth and the different cultures and how different things work and he also told him about Adam and how he missed him like hell. Allura will tell him about Altea and their traditions, how she missed it and how she missed her father, they usually will go to each other's rooms and stay there and talk after a while and usually they would fall asleep in each other's arms. He wasn't ready to lose his friend.

Keith was sitting in his room, sitting on the floor with his arms on his knees, eyes locked on the wall in front of him, millions of memories running through his head with the white haired girl. Like how she accepted him despite the fact he is so stubborn and hot headed, despite his mistakes, she accepted him. Even when they found out he was part Galra, of course it took awhile for her to fully accept that one, and it hurt him, because he cared about her and Keith didn't want Allura to hate him but he totally got why she was avoiding him and was giving him death stars, he would of done the same or even worse. But when Allura apologized and told him it was okay that she wasn't mad at him but at herself because she thought he could be Anything like the Galra.

He sure is missing her right now, she will tell him it wasn't his fault and that he should never think like that.

Hunk did the only thing he knew best. Cooking. He was cooking Allura's favourite foods at the moment he was going to cook a feat for when the girls are out. He was a little bit struggling with the ingredients but Coran translated them so it will be easier for the boy. Hunk was thinking about the first days off as a team and how Allura encouraged them to bond as a team. He remembers when she would seat with her and help him cook the dinner and they would have so much fun, as Allura would mess up from time to time and get herself covered in goo or flour, it was hilarious, how annoyed she will get when she won't get the things done right, and how her laugh would make everything better and make Hunk feel like home because that's how his sisters would act like. God he already missed her so much.

Lance was devastated, he felt empty without Allura around. He missed how annoyed she will get when he was flirting with her, and how something a stupid line of his will work and make her giggle or laugh so hard that she will be on the floor and it made his day every time he got the chance to hear that beutiful sound. Or how her eyes will sparkle every time she would get the chance to get something sparkly, how she made him feel every time when she looked at him and gave him that gorgeous smile of hers. How she will sometimes let him do her hair as Allura wanted to help him feel like home, and she knows that he used to do his sister's hair all the time. And the only reason she knows that is because they would occasionally sit and talk whenever he was doing her hair and they would talk about their families and friends and about the team they would even share secrets that no one knew about. He missed the feeling he would get whenever he was hugging her, and the feeling he got whenever he saw her, now whenever he saw her it was like a dtap through the heart. Seeing her like that was killing me. And no one knew how she got hurt ....besides him .

Coran was in the same state as Lance totally devastated. He always loved Allura like a daughter and it was completely killing him that he couldn't do anything to help her, to save her. Now he had to watch her on that pic every day and he didn't know long he could take it, his heart was cracking every time he was looking at her and breaking every time he remembered that there is nothing else they can do, they needed to wait. The King gave him his most valuable thing in the world and look what happened to her, he would never forgive himself for this. He remembers Allura when she was just a little kid and would see the world totally different than now and how she talked to him about her prince charming arriving one day, how she told him she would never need him to save her and how he did it anyway. He remembers how when ever she will fell down she would want him to kiss it better and not tell her father she cried but he assured her there is no shame in crying and that is actually a good thing, shows you have feelings. A tear rolled down his cheek as he looked up at the pod. Please, don't leave me.

Pidge was the heart of Voltron and that was for sure every single one of them would die for her. The little green paladin that proved them over and over again she can take care of herself, and that they don't need to worry. But they couldn't help it.

Shiro' s thoughts changed and instead of the dark skinned girl with white hair stood a short girl with auburn hair and caramel eyes. Katie. He hated himself for not being able to protect her like he wanted too like he promised to Matt. God, Matt was going to kill him when he found out. He knew Katie for a long time and he always wanted to protect her. He didn't know why and certainly he didn't know for how long he had this feeling towards her. Shiro knew she could take care of herself better than anyone but he couldn't help and think of her like that little girl from Earth, his best friend's sister that somewhere along the way became his own sister. He would go to her lab late at night and see her asleep on the table or on the floor or in her Lion, or under the table and so on it was like a search every time he was trying to find her to put her to bed. Shiro and Katie would spend hours trying to find Matt or talk about him and Sam. Shiro would tell her stories from back in the days when he and Matt were in the Garrison as students, Katie will have this spark in her eyes as the stories would go on and on and she woulnd mind. God how he missed her.

If Keith was worried about Allura he was going INSANE about Pidge. The little paladin got injured because of him, she took the hit for him, the guilt was eating him alive and he can't understand why would she do that, he could've took that hit probably not affecting that bad or at least he wouldn't be here feeling useless and guilty as hell. He can never imagine this team without her, she was the brain of this team maybe even more than that and he will be responsible for losing her. No one knows how she was the only one trying to comfort him when Shiro was gone, I mean everyone did but she was the only one who actually for his feelings making him feel he wasn't going crazy or guilty for being the new leader. He had to admit. Even though everyone was trying to help him, Pidge and Lance were the only ones that made him feel good. And have trust he will never admit this out loud as he will never hear the end of it from both of them. Keith wasn't going to dear in his room anymore. He has to do something. So teeing it was. He gets up and makes his way, the hall d were quite probably the rest were just like him or worst, he will have to check on them later. As he gets in the training room he tries not to think about some specific golden eyes, or the fact he could drown in them so easy, or the smile that lights up his whole room, and his heart skips a beat whenever he sees it, or her crazy crazy hair that grew and it's just above her shoulders and even tho it doesn't stick up anymore the way it used to be it still makes his way up early in the morning when she is up to get her coffee knowing he is already up and made some then she comes and thanks him for it in the training room they drink their coffee together, some time others will join too like Lance did a couple if times....

Left it on a cliff hanger ....HA!