Inside

Why should I smile ? If I am inside my head there is a crazy noisy world in there. Outside, the world doesn't exists, people doesn't matter, just what's inside my head. A selfish! You could say, but what could my smile change outside? Nobody cares about my smile, they prefer to see me cry, they would ask about it, not because they care about, they want to know, they will talk about it and smile.

Long ago I smiled, I was not inside my head, for me outside was enough, and people outside were mad, they wanted to see me cry. I was proud, and happy and used to talk about that.

Nobody wants to know the reason you are smiling for, they just think that your smile is fake.

-"She must have something to hide, something untrue, something shameful, she has to be miserable, she is just acting"-

But, when you are sad, and quite, and hiding on the dark side of your mind, everyone believes it's true: -"of course I knew that smile was fake, she had not such perfect life"- And they smile! And laugh, and talk about how miserable you are... You were supposed to be miserable... Who said life was the other way around...

So I went inside my head, And I don't even tell them What's inside, but to you, to you ... I want tell you, don't show your smile, don't tell them you are all right, don't let them envy your happiness, because they will do the best they can to destroy it, just for the pleasure of watching you cry.

But neither do cry! You will make them happy... Just stay inside, and enjoy your happiness inside your head, inside your heart, inside your soul, always inside.

Just a serious face, no tears, no smile, don't give them answers, don't let them enter your mind.

I am serious, maybe I am happy, maybe I have lied to you, maybe I am sad and just hiding my tears.